Friday, December 18, 2009

Place Your Bets

Dec. 18th, 2009 at 2:01 PM

There's a scratching, screaming, tearing, thrashing, clawing thing inside my heart and I do believe it's taking over my mind as well.

I feel... I have something in my fingertips. Something fluid, flowing, silky, slithery, waiting to be thrown upon a blank white canvas.

But what is it? How can I move on from this darkness when I am still in love with it?

Life is a game that I can't help but play, trying my best to run astray but I just can't stay away.

How can I breathe within this escape? I am who I want to be, but who is really there in the mirror with the big green eyes? Such a competition.

I feel like I won a bet I never should have made in the first place.

I need to be alone for awhile.