Place Your Bets

Dec. 18th, 2009 at 2:01 PM

There's a scratching, screaming, tearing, thrashing, clawing thing inside my heart and I do believe it's taking over my mind as well.

I feel... I have something in my fingertips. Something fluid, flowing, silky, slithery, waiting to be thrown upon a blank white canvas.

But what is it? How can I move on from this darkness when I am still in love with it?

Life is a game that I can't help but play, trying my best to run astray but I just can't stay away.

How can I breathe within this escape? I am who I want to be, but who is really there in the mirror with the big green eyes? Such a competition.

I feel like I won a bet I never should have made in the first place.


I need to be alone for awhile.

A cool page I drew with pen.

June 10th-11th, 2007.

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Happy Is Good But It Makes Lame Poetry

June 2nd, 2007.

#1
Let's start over again. Hi, I'm Britney with a smile. I cry. I hide. I keep the pain inside.
Hey. I'm Jon with an awkward gesture. I fly. I lied. And I just try to survive.

L to the AM and back to the E. lol. What can I say?

#2
I feel happy again
Like when it all began
Smiles lingered
Nothing hindered
And the love only deepened

I'm letting go of the past
To make sure we last
Apart is too hard
Only end up scared
It's no good to end in a cast

#3
Just look at this fork as Just a bend
Or not even that. we can Only survive if we
Never stop trying. you are my Number one.
and
Because of all this love you've shown. Baby, we're gonna make it!
Reality and rules are no match for our Real love. They can stick
It up their a$$es cause I know
That we're meant to be Together
Nothing will ever tear us apart
Even if they try. Do
You believe me? Good!

A page from my notebook. 2007

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When I'm Left Alone

May 28th, 2007.

Has your heart ever pounded so fast and so hard that you felt like you swallowed Thumper?
Have you ever stayed up all night looking for someone's MySpace just to stare at it, waiting for it to tell you their secrets?
Have you ever gotten the urge to throw up when you heard a specific name or past event?
Have you ever hated a complete stranger so badly you just wanted to meet them once so you could rip their ugly, poofy hair out?
Has your body ever exploded into so much emotion you really had no idea you were crying?
Has a night ever passed where you wished on every planet and even the moon cause the stars just weren't big enough?

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To Be or Not to Be... DRUNK (Scribble Page)

May 28th, 2007.

TO BE SOBER
Is to look at things with an unclouded mind and to trick yourself

TO BE DRUNK
Is to look at things and and except them at face value and there is no sugar to coat the bulls**t.

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I love you so just kill me now!

A page from my original notebook. 2007

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"I'm not going to hell- I didn't cum." -BKay

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A quote by Jonathan

"The abyss- is bigger than my shower." ~Jonathan Sinclair

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Scratch Page

May 26th, 2007. 

"Who's hands will I be in when I die? I'll be in mine. Jesus save your soul, I'll save mine."- Jason of Liberty Valance

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"Candy coated death, laced with crystal meth... It's like suicide to look into your eyes... That's where my secrets lay at ease... Take my life, drink me dry, eat my soul from the inside out. Swallow me, suddenly my veins run dry."-  Cassie Steele

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ONCE I'M DONE CRYING MY TEARS ARE YOURS
MY PAIN IS FOR YOU TO SORT THROUGH

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And now we've found the eye of the storm, the calm
Just a little while longer and we'll have to survive again
Or are we standing outside of the tornado
Watching and feeling it grow as it gets nearer
Because if that was the storm...
This is gonna be easier than I thought

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June 2nd, 2007.

Things will get better. I'm tired of playing these games on myself. It's time to put the pieces away and stop playing in a nightmare and wake up and actually live in this dream I've stumbled upon. My dream. It's just that sometimes I don't think dreams really do come true. Then you sing that song called, "I love you, baby" and I realize just how wrong I can be.

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